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Chapter № 018 54:29

why self awareness is worth it

This is the one I promised you in episode one.Eighteen episodes ago I asked why self-awareness sucks. This is where I answer whether it was worth it anyway. …

Chapter № 017 53:42

the self awareness paradox

Self-awareness is supposed to help. So why does it sometimes make everything harder?This episode names seven paradoxes nested inside that one central problem. Some of them you'll recognise …

Chapter № 016 50:04

let yourself be misunderstood

This episode is about music. But not really about music.It's about the year six booklet that sent my nervous system into a full risk assessment. The Rebecca Ferguson …

Chapter № 015 45:02

context changes everything

The words weren't the problem. The context was.This episode is about connotation, denotation, semantic satiation, and why the same word can mean completely different things depending on who's …

Chapter № 014 58:29

the parasocial trap

You feel like you know them. They don't know you exist.This episode is about parasocial relationships, what they are, why they're not new, and what happens when you …

Chapter № 013 1:05:52

trying harder doesn't always work

For most of my academic life, the times I tried hardest were not the times I did best.This episode is about the Goldilocks zone, the grip, and what …

Chapter № 012 53:55

confidence is just performance

This is the episode I said I wasn't ready for in the last one.It's about the confidence loop, how it gets installed, and why breaking out of it …

Chapter № 011 57:57

fear was always the point

It's been underneath every single episode of this season. I just never called it that until now.This episode names the thing. What fear actually feels like in the …

Chapter № 010 55:58

when self awareness becomes self censorship

The same tool that helps you understand yourself can also be used to manage how you come across. And the line between the two is blurrier than I …

Chapter № 009 57:06

when language gives you a mirror

Growing up bilingual gave me a hyper-awareness of language. The ability to read what's underneath words. And a lifelong habit of overthinking my own.This episode is about the …

Chapter № 008 1:00:31

confronting the shadow self

What do people actually mean by shadow work?Not the mystical version. The actual version.I talk about the belief I carried for years that I needed to be remarkable …

Chapter № 007 40:29

self awareness in the body

This episode is about skin, exercise, and the moment I realised I'd been doing all the right things for completely the wrong reasons.I get into cystic acne, all-or-nothing …